| Fan Fiction |
by biniBningPunkista
“Fucking shit!!!”
My day couldn’t just start right.
I tried to regain my footing and descend the stairs more slowly. Clearly this wasn’t a good day for me, but Erika decided to come with a paper bag full of food just to bug me.
“Ohayou Mao-chan! Let’s go shopping as a post celebration.” Erika greeted me cheerfully as I gave her a look that says DROP DEAD.
Intentionally ignoring her, I went straight to the kitchen and took a half filled carton of orange juice. Erika bounced behind me and started taking out food and laid it out on my kitchen table.
“I’m not hungry.” I told her as I shuffled my foot towards my so called work place and took a paint brush but the cheery Erika in front me, who I unfortunately call my best friend decided to grab my brush and put it back to the plate.
“We have to go out. Let’s go shopping. I miss shopping with you. Just this once… puhlease???” She made this batting eyelashes thing with her eye that I so fucking wanted to poke but just don’t have the decency to do it.
A few minutes later I found myself in the middle of a shopping center in Ebisu. What the heck came over me that I let Erika drag me here in EBISU??? I should have just fallen off those stairs.
“What do you think Mao?” Erika was wearing a hat. A rather stupid hat that doesn’t even flatter her head, which made me wonder if she’s the one who fell off the stairs instead.
“I would say this bluntly. You look stupid in it.” I said it loudly that a guy sales clerk lurking nearby stifled a laughter which made him cough instead.
“My point exactly, now that I got your attention… what’s up with you and Toma? Spill out what exactly happened between you and him? Why the hell are you acting so cranky? And just so you know, I actually took the day off to spend it with you and let you ease your mind. Now spill or I’ll hit you.”
That doesn’t sound good… I have a feeling that even if I tell her what happened I’m still going to get hit anyway. I walked out of the store as fast as I could but Erika caught my arm in a claw like way. Where her nails went digging into my skin deeper each time I tugged.
“OUCH!!! That really hurt you know.” I exclaimed at her feeling deeply annoyed, when I noticed that a security guard in that shopping mall was an arm away and was looking at us. I didn’t want to get Erika into trouble, he might think that she’s harassing me so I just gave up tugging and faced her.
“Do you really want to know what happened?” I asked scrutinizing her face if she’s going to hit me or not. She just nodded her head vigorously then waited for me to talk. I took a deep breath and opened my mouth to speak.
“I kissed Toma.” I quickly shut my eyes and rose up my arms in defense as I waited for her blows, but nothing came.
“You always kissed Toma! What’s the big deal about that?” She asked incredulously raising her hands in a frustrated gesture.
“When I meant, I KISSED Toma, it didn’t mean that I just smack kiss him on the cheeks, or the nose or his forehead like I usually do. I KISSED him. The hot-French-kissing-tongue-probing-getting-me-wet kind of kiss!!! That’s the kiss I was talking about!!!” I almost shouted at her that the security guard was now eyeing us.
By this time, Erika was so shocked that her mouth was practically hanging off her face with her eyes so big it could be measured in meters and not just centimeters.
“OH. MY. GOD.” That was her sole reaction at first, and then the hitting started. Initially it was the minor slaps at my arm and my shoulders, and then the pinching came along with the cursing and shoving.
“What the fuck where you thinking MAO?!? That was Toma. IKUTA TOMA!!! Our TOMA. The Toma we’ve know since grade school. The Toma we took a bath naked in the girl’s shower room. The TOMA that’s OUR BEST FRIEND in case you have forgotten!!! You are such a bitch! A brat! A fucking selfish girl!!!! What the hell were you thinking???” Erika was mad. I knew she was mad, and I couldn’t blame her. It was my fault. So I just let her hit me until the security guard went towards us and grabbed Erika away from me.
“Get off of me! I’m going to kick that girl’s ass!!!!” Erika was going semi maniac on me, which I seldom see her do.
“Miss, you can’t do this here whatever the problem is, it scares the costumers away. If you could just please bring this outside...” He said while still holding Erika off of me then he led us out o the building just in front of the mall and kept an eye on us.
By this time my best friend has calmed down and was left with the pinching. Her pinches hurt more than the slaps. I’d rather have the slaps than those pinches.
“You… you… I am so mad at you Mao. Why TOMA??? Why of all the people you could mess around with, why him? Did you wait around for him to grow up, look good and make a lot of money before you could make him yours???” She accusingly looked at me as she said those things.
“You know the blows and pinches you just gave hurt. What hurts more is the way you’re accusing me right now.” I thought it wouldn’t hurt as much as the blows, but it did. I hate it when she gets all like this on me.
“It was all just a spur of the moment Erika, it just happened. Just like that.” I snapped my fingers to give her a visual of what I meant.
“JUST LIKE THAT?!?” she snapped her fingers imitating me with a bewildered look on her face, which was kind of scaring me, “That was just so convenient of you! Just kiss your best friend and make it a complicated relationship right??? What if it doesn’t work out? You know how it is with best friends getting together then breaking up.” She was grabbing my arms and shaking me as if trying to wake me up from a nightmare. The security guy nodded with her in agreement.
“You shouldn’t have kissed your best friend miss. That really complicates things.” He said, butting into a conversation he’s not even a part of.
Even he thinks it wasn’t right. God… what mess did I get myself into.
I didn’t notice that a single tear ran down my face. I was so absorbed on the things that Erika just told me and the aching blows and pinch she gave me that I didn’t notice tears where brimming in my eyes.
“Oh Mao… I’m sorry for hurting you like that… I just couldn’t help it. I don’t want our relationships to fall apart just because you guys kissed. I’m really sorry…” Erika started gushing and hugging me comfortingly. I also noticed that the security guy had already inched away from us.
“Erika…I messed up big time, ne?” I said sadly.
“Yes you did. You’re really such a brat.” She said while hugging me more tightly.
“But honestly… I think… I think I really really really like Toma. Not just in a best friendish kind of way but something more than that. I can’t tell him though, because he is so into Saeko and they look so perfect together that I wouldn’t want to ruin that for him. I mean… I could never be like Seako, the perfect-looking-good-girl. How can I compete with that? I… I also don’t want to destroy our friendship. If it doesn’t work out… how are we going to be? Things will never be the same, right? It’s probably better off being like this. There’s also the fact that… Abe is still my boyfriend, a boyfriend that I feel drifting away from me more and more.” Tears were now freely flowing from my eyes, matched up with snots running out of my nose. Those tears were out of frustration with how I was feeling and the limited things I could do.
Outside of that mall, I just kept crying while Erika hugged me. My life is starting to become a bitch.
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I headed straight to Abe’s place after talking out things with Erika. Things would never be resolved if I would not act upon it but that’s the decision. I’m leaving it the way it is. I don’t want to complicate things between me and Toma or to ruin our friendship just because of that stupid hot and unforgettable kiss.
When I opened the bedroom door, Abe was facing the window and staring outside with a far away look on his face.
“Abe… what’s wrong?” I hate confrontations with boyfriends… in case this was one of them I asked him cautiously.
“Mao… how much do you care about me?” he asked while still staring out of the window.
I was caught off guard. I didn’t know what to say… this past month was something I could never exchange with anyone else. Spending time with Abe was great, but a great deal was still missing. I couldn’t say I wanted to marry him or spend the rest of my life with him.
“I… you’re…” I stammered at him.
“You’re stammering. Meaning you’re unsure of what you’re going to say.” He smiled sadly as he finally looked at me with tired eyes.
“I’m getting transferred next week… to Europe. My company is sending me there to manage it. These past month have been great between us, but something feels quite off.” He said with a bit of irony in his voice.
“Does this mean you’re breaking up with me?” I asked without thinking as I walked over to him.
“Do you want to break up Mao? Is this what you want?” Abe asked sardonically while I kept my mouth shut.
“I think that’s for the best. We both did enjoy each other Mao, I do have to say that… because you where great. There were many things that we both enjoyed, but I guess those were not enough. There are just some things we don’t connect at… I want to work things out but I can’t seem to reach out to you.” He sadly looked into my eyes and hugged me.
“So this is goodbye then?” I asked him bluntly while I hugged him back.
“You couldn’t ask that more gently can’t you?” He gave me a weak smile as I did the same, with tears coming out of my eyes this time.
“Oh God Mao, don’t cry. I didn’t mean to hurt you this bad and make you cry…” He wiped the tears out of my eyes as he kept saying sorry. I shook my head and chuckled.
“No, no… Abe it’s not you. It’s just me… I’m never good at break ups or good bye’s…” that’s why I was partly thankful when he didn’t say goodbye to me when he left Japan before, “I can’t help myself crying when I get into stuff like this. I’m alright. Seriously I’m alright.”
I wiped away the tears in my face and fished out something from my bag and handed it to Abe.
“Here’s your apartment key. I guess I won’t be needing it anymore, ne?” I said while I placed it gently in his hands.
“So this is it then…” I gave him one last hug and kissed him on the cheek as he smiled back at me and gave a nod.
“Good bye Abe.” I gave him my best smile so he would remember me like this, and closed the door behind me.
~To Be Continued~
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