| Fan Fiction |
by biniBningPunkista
For a few minutes I was speechless with my mouth hanging. That smile! That fucking lopsided smile that made me goo-goo in the inside when I was in college! I am really seeing it again. Is this for real?
He reached for me and hugged me tightly as I stood there frozen. After giving me a kiss on the cheek I was thrown back to earth and reality.
“Oh my god… you are for real.” I whispered loudly without noticing that I was voicing my thoughts. Abe sempai gazed at me and gave that smile again. I so wanted to kiss him right then and there.
“It’s been a long time Mao. Why don’t we catch up?”
”I… I…” What the fuck am I stammering for?!? Get a grip INOUE!!! You’ve been having this fantasy for years!!! Your one and only Abe senpai, going to your gallery… sleeping with him on a bed of roses... Huh? Where did that thought suddenly come from? I swiveled to face Aoi and Tamaki sempai.
“How did you know him?”
”We’re childhood friends and neighbors. It’s not bad making business with friends you know.” Tamaki sempai answered me nonchalantly while I was still flabbergasted by his sudden appearance. I have been crushing on Abe senpai for years! Let’s say he’s my unrequited love. Back then he was so intelligent, so gifted, so hot and so fucking not AVAILABLE! All I could do was be his junior while he remained as my senpai.
“Mao-chan, do you still want the flowers or should I just throw them away?”
”N-nande? No… no… I mean don’t throw it away. I like it.” Quickly I grabbed the bouquet out of his arms.
Shit… I’m stammering again. Way to act cool in front of Abe senpai. Mentally I was kicking my self for blabbing like that.
“Are you ok Mao? You’re kind of red.” Abe senpai peered closer at my face.
Nani??? I am blushing?!? I wanted to be swallowed whole by the earth. Aaaarggghhhhh… Let me die instead.
“Ah… Mao’s been complaining of that Kimono earlier that it was so hot and itchy. Since we made her wait for you she had to bear for it for another couple of minutes.” Aoi answered Abe senpai.
”Oh really? But you look good on it Mao-chan. Gome ne for making you wait… I was planning on taking you out for a late night coffee with this two anyway. You guys can change on your normal clothes, I’ll just wait here at the gallery and look around.” Abe motioned for the three of us to go and change.
I reluctantly bowed to him and turned around to leave. While walking away with Aoi to the dressing room, I stole a glance at Abe senpai. He was heading to the center of the gallery to look at my works. I wonder what he would think of them.
In the dressing room, I was struggling with the bowtie at my back that Aoi decided to help me undress the kimono. She was so good at these things, probably because she’s a fashion designer that she knew how to take care of stuff like this. I loved fashion but not to the extent of wearing traditional clothes… I so hated Kimonos. But then again, if Abe sempai would be complimenting me like that I wouldn’t mind wearing a kimono for the rest of my life. Even until my burial day to be exact. Unconsciously this thought made me smile, which Aoi obviously noticed.
“Why are you smiling goofily?” Aoi suddenly asked.
”Eh? I am smiling?”
”Yes you are Mao-chan.”
”Souka, I have no idea I was already smiling.” I quickly turned away my face feeling hot.
”Are you ok? Are you even the Mao I know? I was expecting a different reply than that! What the heck are you turning around for and blushing your face out like that?” Aoi looked like she just discovered something so shocking. Grabbing my shoulders she turned me to face her.
“Ack!!! You! Don’t do that Aoi!!! This is so fucking uncool…” I was trying to hide my blushing face with my hands.
“Oh my god… does this got something to do with Tsuyoshi Abe???”
Ok… this girl has the 6th sense! I swear I can’t just hide anything from her.
I just kept my face buried in my hands, while she was trying to remove them. Finally she gave up and sat in front of me fully clothed while there I was half naked standing in front of her. Half of my kimono was still dangling at my waist while the top part was completely removed. Slowly I brought down my hand to my sides while my head was still hanging down.
“Shit. I’m so busted now aren’t I?” I slowly faced Aoi.
”To me you are. Does Abe know this?”
“He could be one hell of a dense guy if he never really knew I liked him.”
“Souka… Tsuyoshi was never a dense guy,” she nodded knowingly at me.
A few seconds of silence passed between us.
“Since when did you get screwed?” she suddenly asked.
“Since a lot of times! Hello Aoi!? I’m a raging hormone girl. So I get it a lot of times.”
“Baka! You know what I mean…”
“I do know what you mean. I just don’t want to answer it. I guess I am NOT really screwed… it’s just… so hard to deal with this right now. In college he was the perfect guy. MY perfect guy but back then he was unavailable and he just treated me like a sister. Every time I had the chance, I would cling to him and bug him about trivial things, like asking for his help with homework, walking along with him to the bus stop and calling him every night. He is… I’ve been crushing on him since forever. Now that he’s suddenly here. Meeting him again after a couple of years... I’m just taken aback. He’s 3 years older than me Aoi. He has left me in college with a yearning heart. He just left without a trace after graduation, never kept in contact. Shit… now I’m still yearning!!! I thought I was so fucking over that guy! Aaaargh!!! This is so not happening. It’s like getting my first period and the worst thing is having it seen in public because it’s splashed all over my butt!” I was now squatting in front of her and scratching my head miserably messing up my hairdo in the process.
“So there! You don’t have any problems. You like him, period. End of story. All you have to do is face him again and make him go yearning for you instead. Don’t be such a wuss Mao. That isn’t you. Get a grip of your self, stand tall and proud.”
I was looking at her now while slowly digesting what she just said. After a couple of minutes, it was like a switch was turned on inside me, I got up and stripped off the kimono as quickly as I can, retouched my make up and brought out my coat. Getting my channel tote bag and wearing my Prada stilettos, I looked at Aoi.
“Yosh! I’m more than ready to face Abe senpai. He is so totally going to dig me, now that I’m an overnight celebrity why won’t he? Right? RIGHT???” I asked, not sure whether I was really asking her or assuring my self.
Standing in front of her with my right hand at my waist and my left holding my tote bag up high, I posed like a high rated actress.
“That was fast,” she grinned at me.
“It should have been faster.” I said smugly.
I am going to shake Abe senpai’s world tonight and he would wish I was his girl friend back then. I’ll make him wish he came back sooner than this. Walking out of the room with Aoi, I stood tall, proud and feeling really sexy.
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Damn it. Where was my courage earlier???
Here I was staring completely at Abe senpai while he was slowly sipping his coffee and looking at me through his cup. I was sinking in all of his features. His strong jaw, his tall nose, his sparkling eyes… and those dimples… I just love those dimples.
What the hell came over me that I can’t even speak to him properly!? An hour ago I was like an army girl fully equipped and ready to face the battle. Now that the battle was in front of me… a bazooka just blew me away. Basically I’m already dead.
I felt like such a loser. A big time loser… If only Aoi and Tamaki senpai were here, I could at least have pretended to be cool. But then Aoi decided to act very tired and exhausted, I can’t even believe that Tamaki and Abe senpai fell for that because her acting looked so lame. Honestly at first I was relieved to be left alone with Abe senpai… but now… I’m back to the feeling of being such a loser. All through out the walk to the café, I let Abe senpai talk. What I did was stare, which must have freaked him out.
He lowered his cup and smiled at me with that lopsided smile again. My heart jumped a feet.
“You’ve been quiet and observant for an hour. What are you thinking Mao?”
Huh? I was mentally blocked.
He smiled and reached for my hands. An electric shock went through my body and all of my senses went sky high.
“Let’s take a walk.” Grabbing my hand and pulling me up from the chair, he left the tab on top of the coffee table.
The night air was cold that I pulled my coat tighter around me. He gave me a glance then unexpectedly embraced me side ways pulling me closer to him. Briskly brushing my other arm up and down warming me up, he chuckled.
“What’s so funny?” I looked at him while still walking.
“You’re funny Mao. I never thought you would be so quiet when I finally get to meet you! A few years back, before I left college you were this sophomore kid who kept on bugging me with the subject Accounting 2. If you weren’t with Toma or Erika you would always be by my side. Asking favors and help… so what happened? You don’t need my help now?” he nudged me then looked at my face.
“Baka... you still remember that?” I half whispered and half thought to my self. It wasn’t really my intention for him to hear that, but he did.
“Of course! I was a business management student before, and we business management people have good memories,” he said while laughing at me.
“I miss those times you know. Having a Mao-chan at my side and asking me things, making me feel like a really smart guy…”
“Gome Abe senpai… the truth is I did those things because…” I abruptly stopped walking, which took him by surprise.
Looking at him under the street lights, I could make out the outline of his face. The feelings that I have been harboring all those years… It just wanted to get out.
“I like you.” Finally I said it. It was out in the open.
At first Abe sempai was looking at me with a blank expression… then his face broke into a smile showing those adorable dimples that he has.
”So do I.” He said while showing me that lopsided smile once more.
~To Be Continued~
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Hope you enjoyed it. Till the next chapter… Ja ne!
-biniBningPunkista